The first task I'm essentially asked to do in this book is take a step back and visualize my destination - identify my goal. First, by visualizing and vocalizing my goal and secondly, by identifying why I want to live like this goal.
I keep initially thinking, "well I really just want to be a more organized person. I essentially just want to get my shiz together...and in order to do that I have to organize my own space." As the Lord has commanded: "Organize yourselves...establish a house of order." Well let's start with my own home!
But truthfully, it's more than that. I ask myself: why did I even buy this book? Why am I continuing to read it, instead of catching up on Supernatural and getting my Winchester fix?
I guess it comes down to my desire to be better than I am now. (I mean, it's essentially the reason this blog has started to exist) Apart from better as in better in certain skills, including organization, I want to become better as a whole. By being in better control of myself, my desires, of the truth of what I want for ME, and what I want to change!
The book asks me to visualize what I want in concrete and vivid terms and to actually describe it. So here goes: I imagine my ideal space to speak to me on a spiritual level. I am able to see art, furniture and living spaces that speak to me and that describe my happiness. It is a calm place, where I am able to bring people over and they immediately feel comfortable. I want it to reflect culture, not only my Hispanic culture but my love for all cultures and to demonstrate the value I place on that. A Navajo quilt to cuddle in, Latin art on the walls, various languages displayed throughout my home, world music floating from room to room. Sort of like walking into one of those world stores with out all the clutter, incense and same old souvenirs. A place that makes you itch to travel. I want it to encourage reflection, conversation, openness. I want to drink tea alone and feel happy, practice yoga and feel fulfilled, share mate and feel loved and understood, pray and feel the spirit, watch movies and feel comfortable and fall in love in this space. I want it to contain all of that but I want to rely on less items than I do now. I want it to be simple in substance but with all necessities and things that 'spark joy'.
WHY?
Why do I want my home to feel like traveling? Because I miss traveling and I want to know more about the world.
Why do I want to know more about the world? Because I feel it's essential to true progression, to true knowledge and because I truly desire to be educated this way.
Why am I seeking to be educated in this way? Because I feel I am sheltered in this country, I live too comfortably and am disregarding some of my duties as a citizen of humanity. I am blinded by my own selfish desires to only satisfy myself.
What do I feel so selfish and that this sort of comfort is a bad thing? Because for a good couple of years while in medical school, I felt I was the least selfish in my life, and now I've changed. I want to return to that existence.
Why drink tea alone and feel happy? Because I don't make time to do it currently.
Why practice yoga and feel fulfilled? I've always wanted to incorporate meditation into my daily life.
Why share mate and feel loved and understood? Because I don't share much with others. I feel I am closed off about a lot of things and a lot of feelings. I desire to have close friends that value me and that I connect with spiritually, emotionally, culturally.
Why pray and feel the spirit? Because sometimes it's hit or miss, and I want to work more on myself.
Why watch movies and feel comfortable? Because my current living situation makes me feel like I'm wasting time when I even watch one half hour show, when instead I want to make time for things I enjoy.
Why fall in love in this space? Because I'm 30 and I've never been in love or in any healthy relationship.
Damn Marie Kondo. This shiz just got hella deep. And all I was trying to do was organize my closet. -b
~ Blanca Gloria Rodriguez
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